why am I still posting?

why? Ask me why. I'm still posting because I want myself to remember that there's still a lot of things that I need to learn. I am not easily satisfied. I believe, I can do more, I can do better but the more I believe, the harder it gets for me to prove it to myself. I don't know but there's this nagging voices inside my brain telling me that I didn't do my level best.
I want to remind myself,in case I forget,the following things...

1. That it is never too late to learn.
2. It is alright to make mistakes, but remember to learn from them.
3. It is ok to be different.
4. To not be shy when ask for help, though I learn a lot on my own.
5. To not being too judgmental over my own ability and creativity.

If I ever stuck over the same crisis again, I hope when I read this post, I will remember.
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Oh yes, to tell you the truth, I'm still working on with Geocities. It's because, when I ask my family to go and check it out, there are a few glaring problems such as the choice of color, the not-functioning buttons and the list goes on. When I'm done, I'll put up my URL here.
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well, here it is...i really hope you guys can go and help to evaluate..thanks..

www.geocities.com/scienceyearthree

i don't want to live on the moon

Let's sing-a-long [and yes, you don't have to pay RM1/song]

or click here for a grown up version "I Don't Want to Live On The Moon"

i don't want to live on the moon

Well, I'd like to visit the moon
On a rocket ship high in the air
Yes, I'd like to visit the moon
But I don't think I'd like to live there
Though I'd like to look down at the earth from above
I would miss all the places and people I love
So although I might like it for one afternoon
I don't want to live on the moon

I'd like to travel under the sea
I could meet all the fish everywhere
Yes, I'd travel under the sea
But I don't think I'd like to live there
I might stay for a day there if I had my wish
But there's not much to do when your friends are all fish
And an oyster and clam aren't real family
So I don't want to live in the sea

I'd like to visit the jungle, hear the lions roar
Go back in time and meet a dinosaur
There's so many strange places I'd like to be
But none of them permanently

So if I should visit the moon
Well, I'll dance on a moonbeam and then
I will make a wish on a star
And I'll wish I was home once again
Though I'd like to look down at the earth from above
I would miss all the places and people I love
So although I may go I'll be coming home soon
'Cause I don't want to live on the moon
No, I don't want to live on the moon

[oh yeah..so i'll be close to my mum and dad..]
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I still remember when I was young, my mum made me watch Sesame Street so that I learn English. I remembered her making flash cards of words out of boxes so that I will get my first education from her. She taught me with patience. I remember her making records of my first words (sadly, we lost the cassettes while moving in and out a lot of times). She taught me well that when I went to kindergarten, i knew almost everything that I helped my friends to learn. My other friends did not get much education at home maybe because their parents were working, but my mom did not.
Once, my parent thought of quitting me from ELC [Early Learning Center, my kindergarten] because we [including me] believe that my mum can do the exact job my teacher was doing. But, my teacher came to my house and asked my parent not to and they promised to let me moved up to class Saidina Abu Bakar [they claimed that the students were better than my class, Saidina Umar]. My parents agreed. I don't know, but maybe I don't have many friends that I felt so left out, and my new teacher, Ustazah Rugayyah was a very strict lady [ she made us stood outside the class if we failed to give the right meaning of the Arabic words we learned ] that it caused me to fell on the second spot in the class. But my parents were happy, I knew it from their face.
When I listen to this song, it brings tears to my eyes. Not only that Earnie of Sesame Street brings up the memories, but the song reminds me of how I always want to be close to my parents.
I want them to know that I love them with all of my heart and I always try to be their good daughter. Mom and dad, I love you!

My soft skills acquisition...

Associate Prof RM has posted these questions in Moodle. And here's my respond...

A. How have you developed the soft skills in this class? and
B. What evidence do you have to show that you have polished your soft skills?

Communication
Yes, indeed I'd say I'm improving on this. I do believe that I can speak up my ideas and without feeling fear anymore. I'm also more open to critics and I guess it has helped me to improve.

Creative and critical thinking
With the integation of ICT in almost everything that I do now have really enhanced my KBKK (Kemahiran Berfikir secara Kritis dan Kreatif) You may wonder how and why. I'd simply say that I'm exposed to a lot of things and it requires me to think a lot too.

Team work
Definitely! During this course, I learned that working with other people can really expand my knowledge and skills. I'm happy that I belong in a group of wonderful, creative people.


Leadership
Have I or have I not? hurm..Leadership does not mean to always give orders but also to follow one. I guess during this semester I've learn to be more cooperative. In our group, we have this feeling of ownership where everyone takes charge of their part. So really, I am the leader of my own department and I guess I did a wonderful job ruling my own department.

Ethics and professional values
I don't realize if I have. But there were a few issues that I faced in this course that have to do with these two. Sometimes I think I've put my level best to attain the expected ethics and professionals values but being human, I cannot deny the fact that sometimes I made mistakes.

Enterpreneurship
Yes in a no. The course gives me ideas on entrepreneurship but I was not able to show it. Really.

Lifelong learning
Yes, I guess everyone accomplished this one. As far as I'm concern, this course has open up so many possibilities and new knowledge to me. I am glad to say, I learn a lot of new interesting stuffs that can be very helpful and beneficial for me.

A letter...

Dear blog,

I know that you might be wondering, why all of sudden I posted so many things to you. So, let me come clear of what really happen and I hope you will forgive me if you think that I‘ve treated you badly.

This month is Ramadan, yes the auspicious month for all the Muslim and it is best to let go of the business of our daily routine and concentrate on our ibadah. I wish I am busy for that reason but no, I did not. The first week of Ramadan, I was busy finishing my Norms and Values assignment. It was so challenging as I haven’t write Malay language essay for such a long-long time. I am ashamed of myself and I’m sure that my Malay language teacher would feel totally disappointed if they know this. Then, I have a lot of test that requires me to read and recall so many things. I know you know how much I hated test and exams. And I know you know how miserable I was during test and exams week. Towards the end of last week, I was busy finishing the assessment’s item construction. My room was a total mess I bet even a mouse wouldn’t want to opt my room as their place to live. I didn’t do the laundry and I even forget to charge my hand phone a lot of time. Can you imagine that?

I know you want to say that I’ve neglected you but I haven’t really. It’s just that I didn’t make much connection to the internet. While I was busy, I always find time to write and re-edited these posts. I hope you will forgive me.

Blog dearie,

I’ll always love you. You are the best place for me to write down all my feelings on certain things that I might have taken for granted. Thank you for being my blog. I will remember you for the rest of my life.

Yours forever,

Jz.

why oh why

hey mates! don't go hard on blog ya!

by right we should live happily like the sea creatures from Bikini Bottom..Ay Ay Captain!

The thing that should not be spoken...

Rita Skeeter @ Daily Prophet

VS

Jz (in the form of PowerPuff Girls) Blossom

RS: Hello, I’m Rita Skeeter from the Daily Prophet.

JZ: Oh, hi. What are you doing here in the Muggle world?

RS: Curiosity of course and I just don’t want to miss on your recent attempt at the Quidditch cup.

JZ: I’m sorry, I didn’t play Quidditch, and you must have got the wrong person then. That particular person must be in Hogwarts.

RS: Oh, so you were the one that I need to cover(looking frustrated). You sit for the test, if I’m not mistaken. Yes, the test that should not be spoken…

JZ: Oh, yes. I guess it doesn’t matter if I say it out loud. The ICTPE test.

RS: (Surprised) oh, so how does it go? The test?

JZ: I really don’t know what to say. Ah, that’s so typical of me. Anyway, I didn’t know what to expect, so really, I don’t know what to say.

RS: Do you think that the test is difficult to answer?

JZ: Partly yes. I’d be totally lying if I said no. I managed to answer the questions but I didn’t know if I do well.

RS: Which questions did you answer? And why did you choose to answer those questions anyway?

JZ: Well, I answer question A on Airset and Blog and Question B on SMARTBoard. I wished to attempt the last question but I think I will not be answering as better as I could do in Q A and B. so, that’s basically the reasons.

RS: Which one do you think is more difficult, question A or B?

JZ: Both have their own strength and weakness. I mean, speaking on my answers for both questions. In Question A I doubted a few facts that I wrote and in Question B I doubted if answer the question wrongly.

RS: You think you did wrong?

JZ: Exactly! I'd say that my answer doesn’t seem if I really-really answering, you get what I mean?

RS: Erm, almost…I heard you were so tensed? Was it true?

JZ: Yep. No doubt about that. I’m never relaxed for a test. No, I don’t find that sitting for a test is a comfortable experience.

RS: So what do you expect then?

JZ: Err, can I skip this question?

RS: Perhaps, you have better ideas on how it should be?

JZ: I don’t know. That’s so me. I never really like test, exams, you name it, I hate it.

RS: Hurm, what is your prediction on the test exactly?

JZ: No prediction. I don’t have feelings for this (looking elsewhere)

RS: Do you think that you were given ample time to complete the test?

JZ: Yes, more than I need. More time means that I need to write more. My palms and fingers were hurting after that. Maybe I haven’t written for such a long time.

RS: So you were saying that technology has taken away your writing skills?

JZ: No, I don’t blame the technology. It’s just that I don’t find a proper reason to write long paragraphs. I mean, if I can type, why should I write, right?

RS: Is there anything that you believe that this test has given you, apart from the pressure?

JZ: Haha (laughing).oh yes, it helps me to reflect on what I’ve learnt so far. It was great to know that before this, I didn’t know many things that I do now. Plus, the things that I do know now could really help me in my career in the future. It’s great.

RS: Magnificent answers! You save my job!

JZ: Its ok, Clark Kent from the Daily Planet said that to me too.(Smile)

Rita Skeeters is a character from Harry Potter.

Daily Prophet is the newspaper for the wizard world in the story and Muggle is the normal human being who does not possess any power and live in the normal world.

IWB in memories...

Q: How do you exactly feel after completing the project?

A: I hope I have more time, more brilliant ideas and more skills of using the IWB. However, I was completely hopeless. I’d say I’m not completely happy with my work. I honestly think that I can do better than that but I believe that there’s one thing that makes me quite astound by myself.

Q: Oh, exactly what is it?

A: That I was able to make use of only resources provided by SMART Notebook Gallery. Except for the video clip, I took it from YouTube.

Q: Can you share with us how you do your slides?

A: My, it's a long story. First, I chose a topic. I had to tell you I had a hard time to find one, one that can really help me design something that is somewhat creative. I am not creative,I guess that's why I didn't nail the project.I ended choosing "PREPOSITION" as the topic. After a stressing time choosing a topic, then came the other problem that was the designing on the SMART notebook.

Q: Wasn't it suppose to help, not to add the existing burden?

A: Ay, for a beginner, it's hard especially when you don't really know how it works. But it was soon that I discovered many things that the IWB can do. It can do a lot of wonderful things. About the designing problems, I managed to get help from my team mates. I tried to design an activity that is easy to use by both;teacher and students. The part when I have to determine the color and the font were the meticulous one, as I don't want it to give a hard time for the audience. A lot of theories from Nina Spada's book at last make sense to me when designing the activity.

Q: Throughout the designing process, how do you feel?

A: Oh my. I felt like throwing myself outside my bedroom's window. I focused on being original, authentic and I challenged myself to use of only the resources that were provided by SMART Notebook Gallery. I downloaded more pictures from the SMART Essentials for Educators for the activity. I did this simply because I wanted to prove it that this software works and it's user-friendly. It is suppose to lease the burden, as you were saying just now.

Q: In short, tell us how your project looks like.

A: A simple, interactive activity that can be used as a whole or just a part of the lesson.

Q: What do you think of your team mates’ products and the others as well?

A: Well, I wished someone could murder me during the presentation day. My, theirs were great; completely genius work and all of them deserved a standing ovation. Oh, I cannot help myself from clapping my own hand for them. I mean, how’d they do that? Where did they have all of those ideas from? It’s surprising to see how creative everyone could be.

Q: (Eyes rolling) so, are you telling me that you’re jealous of their work?

A: Absolutely! Wouldn’t it be great if I could read their mind…?

Q:Did you benefit anything from the presentation then?

A: Oh yes I do. Looking at others works gave me a lot of fresh ideas. If I were to use the IWB in the future, I’d definitely use their ideas; teachers are the greatest copycat anyway…(giggling)

Q:Do you think that you’d do well? I mean, weren’t you afraid that you’ll get low marks?

A: I gave a thought on that but seriously, I’m not that afraid. But, I didn’t say I’m fearless. Everyone expected high marks, right? But I put it this way, I’ve done my very best and yeah, of course I wanted to be appreciated. So, either it’s going to be high or low it doesn’t really matter to me as long as I know that I’ve accomplished that far.

Q: How about the Flash that you made for your group?

A: Oh yes, that’s the best part anyway. I got it from http://www.flash-slideshow-maker.com. I downloaded the software to my laptop and since then I’ve been hooked up with my laptop making flash files. It was interesting!

Q:Is it difficult to do the flash files?

A: Not at all. Maybe we need to try a few times but after that, we’ll be ok.

right from the bottom of my heart.Confession time.

Do you still remember that we need to do an evaluation on this course and submit it to Moodle?

At first, I thought I'll be dead as I didn't know that I need to do it. Luckily, Ms Ng prolonged the date due and Yap Jia Rong helped with the Airset,I'm back to normal.Thank you Ms Ng and JR.

I still remember my freshmen year in MPIK, that being honest could be hurtful. I am sure that my ex-foundation classmates know this tragic tale. I have nothing against the doer, really because I think that he/she just spoke his/her mind.That incident has leave a mark in my head and I'm sure that all of my ex classmates felt the same way too. As a result, when I wanted to write any comments or evaluating someone, I will take a long time, just to find the right words that might not hurt other's feeling.

Usually, I will never care of commenting as I'm not a judgemental person. However, maybe I'm getting older and more sensitive. Here's my humble point of view that I wish to share with all of you... (while filling up, i re-edited my evaluation form more than twice, I failed to recall how many times..)

What do you like most about the class? (please list as many as possible)
what i like the most about the class is that i always know that i will be doing and learning interesting new knowledge. i didn’t get any formal education on ict before so i always feel motivated to go to class to learn.

What do you like least about the class? (please list as many as possible)
i didn’t like the atmosphere. the lab was hot and with 75 of us at a time, i feel like suffocating. i tried to adjust myself to accept the condition. another thing is that sometimes, some of my mates at the back are talking with each other during the lecture which later caused me the failure to listen well. maybe it’s best for the lecturer to use a microphone.

what challenges did you face in learning the new ict skills in this class?
my challenge would be due to my learning style, which i am a slow learner. i can do many things and produce a good product or presentation but usually, it will take a lot of time. however, i managed to finish up my assignment in time though i feel like i can do much better than that.

what “preconceived” ideas and assumptions did you bring with you to the class?

1. usually i’ll check the muced website to find out what i will learn for the next class.

2. what i’m going to learn will be useful for my future teaching and learning processes.

what problems did you face in completing the assignments? how did you solve it?

first, for the blog assignment. i have to admit that to write down experience or a real life event would be one of my weaknesses. most of the time i failed to be critical as i always presumed that being optimistic is the only way. i always feel intimidated when i visited other people’s blog as when i look at mine, i always feel inadequate.to improve mine, i always edit my blog,and read it again and again.

for the forum in muced, when i wanted to write something, there will always be someone that has written down what i wanted to write. i feel it is hard to express myself. to solve this, after reading, when i agree with someone, i just reply straight to the person’s ‘reply’ instead of the ‘parent’ message.

for smartboard, since it’s something new, i have to try so many times to do it. to solve problem regarding smartboard, i ask help from my group member.

were you able to work with your team? yes/no. explain why and how.
yes. i am blessed to be in this group i must say. they are very helpful. there’s not a time when they didn’t help me to encounter my problem. while preparing the smartboard assignment, my team members were those who really help me and it makes me happy to learn as they are also motivating.

what is/are the factor(s) that make you blog? (please list as many as possible)

1. it makes me happy to share my thoughts
2. i really have to because it is apart from the assignment
3. it serves as a ground for me to learn more about internet
   

have your blogging habits changed overtime? yes/no.

i don’t really think that my blogging habit changed overtime. i only have time during the weekend to update my blog and sightseeing others’ blog because during weekdays i am preoccupied with other courses’ assignments. i didn’t do anything much on blog during weekdays.

how much does blogging helped you in understanding a particular item? explain.
maybe it helps me in understanding basic internet application that can be used.

how much does blogging helped you in understanding the course? explain.( argh the trickiest one!)
i have to be honest that i don’t really find that it is useful for me to understand the course. i found the resources and reading material given by prof r.m were very useful and sufficient.

what did you learn from blogging:- (a) technical skills (b) other skills (c) learning how to learn (d) others please explain each aspect.

i learn a lot of things from blogging. it improves my skills and understanding on html codes [i’m from science class and we have to build a website this semester]. from blog i learn and practice to make use all of the resources available on the net to build website and learn about html codes.

not only that, my blog serves as my memory too. i learn that i have progress over time and i positively think that i can do everything if i dare to try and if was given the opportunity.

what are the criteria which made you choose to read that particular course mates’ blog?
friends that really cares about me, my group members and those who leaves their comment on my blog.

did learning occur when you read your course mates’ blog? yes/no. explain.
yes. by reading other people’s blog makes me catch on things that i might have missed during the class. it also makes me realize things that i might not see or think.

would you leave comment(s) after reading the blog? yes/no. explain.
yes. if i find it’s appropriate to do so.

are there any suggestions that you could make to further enhance your blog?

i lack the creative writing skills. i am not even critical when writing. i think i need to be more creative and critical after this.

i always find that blogging is the last chore in my to-do lists. i should be putting more effort from now on.

i should also ask opinion from my usual visitors so i can improve my blog.


I humbly appologise if I've hurt anyone in attempting these questions.

Wait,

Announcement!

assalamualaikum and a very good day to all dear blog readers, friends, lecturers, muggles, halflings, he who-must-not-be-spoken and what not..(huh?)

i am indeed in grieve to tell you that i will not be able to manage the blog for a while. i have a few (still in editing) posts coming up soon and i will be back as soon as possible. this week is tremendously the most tedious week because i have two tests, a website project and yes, assessment assignment (did i just read your mind?) to do. so i hope that i will not disappoint anyone who come to my blog to read on something new. i hope my apologies will be accepted.

I am so sorry...again.

sincerely,
me, who always been in love with my own blog...